It alone is without flaw,
It alone rounds and completes all,
That mystic baffling wonder."
[Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass]
Dear Elliot,
Time is passing so quickly.
It feels like just yesterday that I was jumping up and down, waving the positive pregnancy test in the air like my own victory flag. I remember rubbing my belly and silently promising to protect you from any harm. But God had his own plans. My heart still breaks whenever I think back to that horrible day, when the doctor said, "There's a problem with the baby."
You will be here before I know it. I can't wait to meet you, but to be honest, I'm not entirely sure if I am ready yet. But ready or not, every day brings me one step closer to your birth, and the beginning of our journey.
There's just one thing you need to know:
Mommy's here.
And I'm not going anywhere.
Love,
Mommy
oh jess, this made me tear up a little. Little Elliot is so lucky to have you as his momma. It sounds like you have amazing faith which will help so much to get you through the hard times... we will all be praying for him!!
ReplyDeleteSoooo sweet Jess! I really hope his NICU stay is short. You are so strong. You will be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI can tell already that you are going to be a fantastic mom.
ReplyDeleteStill praying all the time! Elliot is SO lucky to have you as his mommy!
ReplyDeleteHi I am Nicole from ColiesKitchen.com I wanted to drop by and say hi. I really like your blog, and am now a new follower. I would love to have you stop by Colie’s Kitchen if you get a chance.
ReplyDeleteYou are going to be a GREAT mama!
ReplyDeleteI think little Elliot is one lucky boy to have you as his mama.
ReplyDeleteWhy thanks, ladies! I needed the encouragement. I was having a bit of a rough day yesterday. Too much worrying, I think.
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