I can't believe it. Sometimes, I still wake up in the middle of the night in a panic because I don't feel him kicking. Every detail and moment is still crystal clear. It was the happiest day of my life. I will never forget hearing him cry for the first time, just before the doctor plopped him on my lap. I remember looking at him in awe and being afraid to touch him. A few hours later, when they wheeled me down to the NICU, he grasped my finger with his tiny hand and I was instantly in love. I still remember feeling heartbroken when they made me leave- I bawled all the way back to my room. In fact, I still feel that heaviness every time we leave the NICU for the day.
It feels like just yesterday we were still getting lost in the hospital and forgetting all of the NICU policies. And now, here we are. We know all the nurses by name. We can maneuver all of his cords and wires with ease. We know what all of the different alarms mean. We can gavage him all by ourselves. We're NICU pros.
Elliot is perfect. Every time I look at him, I can't believe we created something so beautiful. He is my cuddle bug, my little piggy, my little man, my everything. I love this little boy so incredibly much... and he's already a WHOLE MONTH old! It's hard to believe AND handle... I'm not ready for him to grow up.
Happy One Month, Elliot Reid. Mommy loves you so much! ♥
My nurse styled my hair for my birthday! :)
It's my party, I'll sleep if I want to...
Such a beautiful little boy, you have! :-)
ReplyDeleteAww he is so adorable! Happy one month! :)
ReplyDeleteThe Sweetest Life♥
I love it. So precious. I am so glad you are sharing your journey with all of us. Very inspiring.
ReplyDeletelove the hair-do!! happy 1 month elliot!!
ReplyDeleteHappy one month Elliot!!
ReplyDeleteHappy one month precious boy! When did your husband get his Elliot tattoo. That's so sweet.
ReplyDeletesweet pictures! He's a handsome little guy :)
ReplyDeleteHappy One Month!! <3
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday sweet Elliot! One month old, wow. :)
ReplyDeleteHappy one month Elliot, and I LOVE your hair! xoxo
ReplyDeleteHappy One Month!
ReplyDeleteIt's so amazing how much older he already looks
Happy One month!!
ReplyDeleteHe is getting cuter and bigger by the day!!! before you know it he will be as big as my daughter(and running around like crazy)
Happy 1 month Elliot!
ReplyDeleteI'll always remember your birthday because you're exactly one month younger than my new baby Milo. :)
He's looking SO great! God bless you and your little family and happy one month, Elliot!<3
ReplyDeleteSomehow, this blog got lost in my list - I am sad I haven't been following along for the past month. I just caught up on 30 days of blogs and I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. I can feel the incredible love you have for your son - What a brave mother you are, and your husband as well! What an amazing story. I knew nothing about gastroschisis before I started reading your blog. Elliot is a beautiful little boy with 2 amazing parents that love him more than life itself. God bless you and your family ...
ReplyDeleteMy daughter was in the NICU for the first 6 days of her life - I understand (slightly) what you must be going through. Leaving the NICU and going home to see the empty baby's room is very difficult to do. My husband brught home our daughters swaddle blanket & slept with it so he couod have her smell next to him all the time. The absolute best day will be when little Elliot comes home ... and that will be soon! You have Fellow Mom Blog friends out here praying for him!!
~Skye :)